Wat A Day!!!

Hi.. Pls pray for me whoever who sees this blog!! haiz..I am now almost being ground.. Now my mother is on the phone with my auntie, Talking about me.. Not only auntie, but aunties!!! and uncles.. They are all asking why am i not working now, and even ask why my mother still gives me some allowance where i don't bring money home!! Frankly speaking, i really look forwanrd for every year new year but this year i don think so cos i know i will surely be verbally attack but my father side and mother side.. Really reminds me of 3 years ago when they know that i become Christian, then all my uncles and aunties gather at the dinner table during new year challenaging me not to go to church.. Seriously i really thought of giving up then of going to the church cos one of my auntie even offer me of giving me ANYTHING, and i mean ANYTHING like bringing me overseas to buy watever i like IF i DON"T go to the church.. Phew.. thank God i made the right decision of following God, if not i really cannot imagine wat i will be now.. Materialistic( did i spell correctly)... but really its not a easy decision then cos who don't want to be satisfy our desires.. 5 C's.. But i really glad i did that.. and today i think its not a decision making cos i know wat i want.. But still i have to pray for lots and lots of wisdom.. How to put my message thru them and convince them of wat i am doing.. Yeah and it shall be done..
So Sorry guys and gals that i can't go nexus today to help out in the deco, cos i really had to show my mum that i am also part of the family and spending time wit them.. also remind her of her convictions.. later will be a caregroup really pray that everyone will be refresh and restore by Him.. And that the calling will be a sucessful one with many responsive visitors.. Yeah DI2, it can done!!!

Yesterday was busy doing something so never manage to blog.. Yesterday was a great and adventures day!!yes indeed a very very adventures one.. early in the morning i went to the bustop to take a bus to tuition, then suddenly a guy appear from no where saying he knows me saying i meet him in Marina Bay, and the truth is i don't know him.. then he keep following me, ask me to hold hands with him.. CRAZY.. telling the truth i was so scare then, there were people at the bustop but they don seem to bother, then thank God my friend mother who is also my neighbour came.. she ask me why i know him, then she knows he is a liitle ____ in the mind.. then i sat down beside the auntie then this ghuy sat beside me.. He put his hands around my waist!! i was shock i stood up and don't bother him.. then he told the auntie that he knew me and that i am no longer a vigin!!! and even went to his house!!! Wat the!! but never mind i think he is a little not right up there.. He is very young.. Age range around from 20-30.. then the bus 985 came, i went up and he follow, i kept praying and praying then i think he no e-link card then the uncle chase him down.. PHEW... Thank God.. So scary, next time i think i dare nit to go that bustop any more..
This day still goes on, i went informatics wit Cheng and met up Phoeby get to know many China people as they having their CCA.. get to know this two girls, the house mate of Cheng.. Then i chat with them in the audi which is like a hall, i sat on the stage then i jump down... OH MY!!! there's a nail and it tore my 3/4 jeans.. then i am so so so so don't know wat to do, then i told the gals, she was also shock but i took my bag and cover my tored jeans which the split is so so big!! i bit goodbye to them, and went to a shop to get a skirt which cost me $14.90 hee.. wear that for new year...
Isn't yesterday a adventures day?? haha.. Sure God is there to protect me.. i can feel it..

Another one Bites The Dust

Haha today when Germ's house for shepherding then we practice P and W for our thurs Cg.. HHAaha.. i find both of us sing le very funny, maybe both of us cannot hit the high notes so like singing tone deadly.. haha.. but never mind cos God look at the heart.. Amen!! then she introduce me to Queen then there's this song by the title, "Another one bites the dust"so cute lor this song, the rythm so cute!!! haha.. Then also eat a little things at her house, any one wants the freshest fish can go there find cos always go her house sure eat fish one.. haha some more she still remove the bone for me.. haha.. so lucky... then after that went to Bugis to look for Xuesha and Cheng..

One more thing i learn: ( Looking on how the various attitudes impact a team made up of highy talented people)

Great Talent + Rotten Attitudes = Bad team
Great Talent + Bad Attitudes = Average Team
Great Talent + Average Attitudes = Good Team
Great Talent + Good Attitudes = Great Team

Isaiah 55:8-9

Many things happen in this world, like the tsunami, 911, all the terroist attack... Man wouldn't have known everything. Life is like waves in the sea.. No matter how calm is it, there will still be waves.. Therefore, man live to understand, xperience and mature thru everyday's living. For at this very moment there may be problems, doubts, struggles in our lifes, but we know that we are not weird cos everyone is also facing things like that, at least we know that Jesus have gone thru what we are going thru now, and have victory against Satan.. So why are we fearful, why do we complaint? For in the bible says in Isaiah 55:8-9 ("For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways," declares the Lord. "As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts. )

I read a book and there's this quote says,

Sow a thought, reap a action;
Sow a action, reap a habit;
Sow a habit, reap a character;
Sow a character, reap a destiny.
-Samuel Smiles

its a nice one, yeah?
Hope it benefit those who read this.

Few days ago i found my name in Japanese and it look something like that, Cool Yeah???

BLEACH , Ichigo

CooL!!!

Wow.. Really so happy today.. Today its my first time attending CTM.. Even though i am not a new Cl but its my first time attending cos other times i cannot manage to take leave.. The atmosphere there was great! MAybe all of them are Cls and Core members so all of them are really enthu..Of cos the Dians also very enthu lah.. Wow.. really wanna see a service by Di is like that enthu one when its time to praise , every one praise wit our hands, legs and mouth.. Really wanna thank God for answering my/our prayers.. Learn many things there from Pastor Ben also got the plans for our first quater of this year 2005.. haha.. Jesus Rawks!!!

Donno wat's wrong with me today i was so hungry today after returning from Nexus, that i ate so much things. Never been eating so much le.. my tummy's so bloated that i could hardly walk.. haha.. But i am still so glad.. really wanna pray for my health recently cos my chest has been aching for months, also don know why.. Seriously, i think i am pretty healthy as i do take fruits and vegetables regularly..

Yeah.. God answered my prayers, as i look back i remembered i prayed that i won't get infected by the chicken pox and now its already a week and i haven i find any sym of the virus.. Yeah!!!

Recently my brother brought back a DVD from his friends, an japanese animate donno whether any one heard before, its title is " Bleach" Wow.. its a nice show.. Talking about bad spirits devouring human souls.. nice show..Four Stars!! 四颗心!! But they always put the main character so young, about 15 years old.. Quite unrealistic.. Animation Fever!!!

Just finish downloading a free software from the net, Real one player.. Then i look throught my received files and remember that a few months ago Michael send me a few clips about Dians.. So i went to open using Real one player, as last time i can't manage to open it wit the Windows Media Player.. As i watch i laugh until like no one business.. i laugh until my tears almost fell.. HHAhah so funny.. its a quite long ago meeting where all the brother played the human stacko.. Think Big J was then the main focus co s everytime he is surely the last to "KO" them.. haha.. Thank God Cedric "fasted" from Human Stacko so he never kena by then if not i think we won't be seeing Cedric any more.. HAah.. Jk jK..

Have You Ever Feel Out Of Place

Haiz.. Today still haven got back my oraganizer, felt so out of place cos i have already get used to rely on the book le..

"Wow.. Why you so spiritual one?""Someone becomes holy moly le.." do you offenly hear this remarks??
Sometimes i really thought its not a matter of some one becoming holy or spiritual le.. But the question asked here should be," HOW MUCH DO U LOVE GOD?"
For me i think that when a person who really loves God, will seek Him and to know more about Him and love the things He love.. Emm.. Its jus like you loving someone, and you will like to identify with him and do the things he like to do, even if you don like you will jus do it cos you love him.. so its the same.. when you are trying to be like Him you will inherit more of His character.. Yeah???

Wah... Really gotta pray hard that i won't be infected by the chicken pox virus.. Even though my body don really have any visible spots yet but right now i am having a slight fever so let's really hope its jus a mere fever, then that's it..

Thanksgiving

Oh My... Today actually got many things to blog about cos i really wants to type down what i learn in today's meeting at AMK ministry house.. But i left my oraganizer that i wrote down all my notes in there..Haiz never mind, ask Cedric to get for me tomorrow.. Had a great day today chewing on the WOG, learning many things that impacted me..

Today i came home after the meeting, reach home around 11 plus almost 12am le.. Then realise that today's my turn to wash the dishes, then i remember wat Meihua taught in the meeting today about finding joy in doing things including washes dishes... Haha.. yeah did the washing then suddenly my ex- shepherd called me.. then ask Jane to call too and we conference our call.. Didn't really talk to my ex-shepherd, Weiyuan for many many months le, sort of missing her.. Then we talked about our salvation and our lifes.. HAha then one funny thing is that she wanted to learn dance classes.. Line Dance??? Hahaa.. Then she wants to dance for us during our birthday this year as the three of us are finally turning 21.. 21!!! So fast.. Jus in a blink and times really flies.. Looking back, i have only jus converted.. And now i am 21.. We also decided to really gather together to celebrate our Birthday this year.. The times we had really flies very fast after i converted into a Christian.. Maybe i am leaving a more fulfilling and enjoyable life rather than enduring it thru.. Cos God is faithful..
Now here i really want to code down how God blessed me thru these years.. Really... I am so thankful to God, really can't do without Him.. Even there are still struggles in life now but i felt more relief cos i know that i am not doing my life alone, and that alone makes me feel warm and hope in living my life.. But now its really to late.. i need to get some sleep before i teach my student tomorrow.. Will update again tomorrow!!!

Here's a little song:

And so we talked all night about the rest of ourlives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real cool
Stay at home talking on the telephone with me
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at our selves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

1 - As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can we ever find a job that won't interfere witha tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

Repeat
1-La, la, la, laà
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, laà

We will still be friends forever
Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

That's Me!!

It's My Life

Blog.. Blog.. Blog... Now blogging seem to be part of life.. jus feel like typing wat i am feeling this particular day.. Wat can i say? today is another unique day that God has planned.. i think about many things recently.. Alot Alot Alot Alot... mostly about my group and some personal issue..

Sometimes when things in front of you seem so big and hard to go thru and sometimes u felt like giving up but its jus a emotion that people normally feel.. Maybe its my spirit that have grown stronger even things are hard but my spirit seem even willinger than before to take it.. my body feels like breaking down, giving up,...but my spirit don allow it to happen.. it's jus the chiong spirit that moves the body outside.. Then that remind me of Paul.. He controls the body and not the body to control him..

是好是坏
是坏是好
都是人身注定
只要有神在
人身就不必忧
你觉得呢?

On Inspiration, Influences and Catalysts

When it comes down to it, quitting is a solitary affair. You're in it by yourself. You can't elect a proxy; you can't split the tab. But before it comes down to it- before the moment of the quit- the quitter is faced with a world full of advice, signs, role models, and extenuating circumstances that can and do affect the quit. You run up against other people.They tell you things. You notice various coincidences and telling events. They give you ideas.

Flexibility or a Compromise?

Sitting here.. Reflecting my life for the last few days.. thinking back from the last week till now, i found myself grown stronger disciplining my mind, as people who know me, they will know that i am someone easily being distracted.. for the last few days and weeks i face many problems, been rejected, corrected, rebuted, and even some decision making that i find so hard to choose.. left or right? there is no wrong but in different people's perspective, different way of dealing.. should it be compromise? or is it not a matter of compromising but different views of different people..

Overall i really take a deep search in my heart, mind and soul.. wat should i do or decide? W.w.j.d. ?? flexibility or a compromise? i am still dealing with it.. God should it be left or right? i quieten down my hearts to listen from God voice for He says in MAtt 7:7 seek and you will find..

I will wait...

My eyelids felt heavy, i tried to force it open but it jus can't.. Today i went giving tuition at Bt Gombak, i really really can't take it any more, i fell asleep in front of my student, right in front of his face... i am really so so tired.. i tried to sleep early the night b4 every time i had tuition in the morning at 8.30.. Think i really should seek a doctor already.. i really tried very hard to get some sleep and steal some of my between times like travelling in the bus or MRT even in the TOILET.. haha.. thought about it, its really funny, indeed funny.. i cannot tahan anymore and i told my student to do eyes message wit me saying that it help to keep ourselves healthy indeed i am not lying, then i took the time to steal some rest for 5 mins.. Wat AMAZES me the most is Jane's testimony.. She told her student to play a sleep game and whoevers sleep the longest gets sweets from the loser.. So " creative".. hee.. today after the tuition i went Xuesha's place for shepherding.. she lives ard Tiong Baru and she rented a room together wit her mum.. wow.. a very nice place.. they even place plants inside the room.. its like a country side house wit laced curtains. woo so cosy.. then after that i went to my new tution which i jus took up.. near Bt bukit.. wit huixian.. so funny they all 2 families living in the same house.. then i taught the pri 1 kid then Huixian taught the Pri 2 kid in the SAME house, DIFFERENT room..then this Huixian went to the market after tuition to watch her show.. " Pi Li Huo" wonder wat's so nice abt the show.. hee.. maybe only aunties like that show.. hee.. ( jus kidding) later all the fans of Ah Chen come attack me.. hee..
And oh ya tomorrow we are having our CG at Germs house, really pray that i will not be infected by the chicken pox virus.. hee.. really if not i cannot work for 2 weeks and leave house for 2 weeks, how am i going to live? Waiting for God's miracle to happen.. I will wait and see..

Letting It Go And Dreaming Big

My heart feels heavy, and yet i can feel peace in my spirit, its jus a feeling i don't know how to describe..Thoughts came pouring in.. Sometimes things become complicated when two extreme meets.. God's blessings and one's desire..Today i can say its a day of ______ don know wat to fill in the blank there.. i jus feel peace yet heavy, joy yet burden, glad yet ... Certain trails when God really test you, you don know wat to do, you know wat is right but yet do likewise but in the end you really sees wat God is doing.. Letting go and coming back.. Happening and standing back.. Jus leave it to God and God will do the rest.. Yes and i'm assure in His hands my life be right, just do wat is right.. Pray for it and God will work to it.. Jus pass it and never will it return again.. Trust and claim His promises for He will not lie nor forgets..

Today Huixian, Jey, thomas, Tim, Richard and myself when to Simei ITE.. Wow... its really a giantic sight to see the school, its like a bit of mixed Lasalle cum NYP.. Wow.. so nice so big.. ITE really gotta be a great campus in Singapore.. The uniforms comes in various colours due to the different department, even cutting also there's a difference.. But the uniform really stylo, someone from outside will not even tell that's an uniform, it looks cool.. somemore one thing,Today i think all of us who went for the survey really being touch by an angel..

Firsty this morning when all of us were in high spirits preparing to do survey in the new campus then we realise that we got not enough survey forms so we went to the nearest shopping centre which is the East point to try to get some photocopies of the forms who knows the uncle is charging10 cents per piece.. 10 CENTS PER PIECE!! so we went to the MRT station where there is photocopy services there, but something so unbelieveable happen!! the Zapping machine breakdown at the very minute so we went to the campus itself as we thought that there will be photocopy services there.. BUT to our horror we realise that there's no photocopy servies there as the school is not totally set up yet still some shop on the way to finishing like the CO-OP shop.. as that happen we ask lecturer there for such services and to our amazment, the lecturer offer to help us to zap around 20 copies in the staff room without a single charge.. Wat can we say!! Touch by an angel?? Its still a mystery till today..
All in all we had 68 contacts.. Wow.. Appaluse!!! To God the most high!!
After which Huixian, Jey and thomas went to so call work, and Tim, Richard and me went to Cedric's place to have a little nap.. then ard 7pm we had our unit prayer meet at AMK ministry house.. took dinner at S11 then went home..
Think God is really testing on my patience really.. recently many things happen in my life that makes me even more patient and cool temper than before.. and i really thank God for that.. Have you given thanks to God today? Give thanks for the breath u breathe and th epeople around you.. May it be good or bad jus give thanks for everything that God allow it to happen, it happen for a reason.. Yeah? or do we complain why this and that happening to me like a little child stomping his fet when things does not goes on to his liking.. Sometimes we tend to take things for grant as if we deserve it.. But the fact is that we do not deserve it.. The people around us say something that you can't take it or is it the people in ur gp can't understands u or is it that ur shepherd corrected you and you think that u don deserve it by showing an attitude to him or her.. But all this happen to God's will, and i really thank God for making me a better person this year than the last year.. the above examples is wat i always complain abt, but thru it my spirit grew sweeter and my spirit grew stronger, my love toward people increases..
Yes.. i can't say that i am perfect yet but i am reaching for it as i know that this year 2005 will not come easy but i believe i will go thru it wit God, for more people will fall in and more problems will come and also i will start looking for a full time job sonner or later, as i loo down this year, i really can't make it alone but to really rely on Him 100%..
As wat Meihua share her vision building the DI service, and yes i am looing forward to it.. imagine the whole di grows and every one in Di have a role in it .. wow.. a giantic sight..
Sevice starting soon and Germaine(stage manager)preparing the people on stage to do their best in the services, then at the other corner Jane(worship leader) having the last practice for the ss, in the room Phoeby( image leader) moblise people to do the image for the people going on stage, Cheng Cheng(UL)meeting his unit outside the audi to brief them on the sitting arrangment, Xuesha (Usher head) meeting the ushers to brief them on where you are suppose to locate b4 and during the services, Peckling( Deco head) making sure everything is in place in the audi b4 the service starts..Meihua sitting at one corner preparing her hearts to preach in the service later.. of cos the other Dians will have their roles too.. as for me.. haha.. i will be the guitarist of the day.. Hee.. Yeah.. and that's something abt how the Di service will be.. or maybe even better!! wow.. so excited!!

2005 Resolution

Walking quietly into my father's room, i took a glance at my father whose sleeping soundly. He curve himself like a prawn as the air con was turn on. i look at him again for a few mins, he is ageing and getting older. When will him come to know God? The God-shaped hole in his heart is still empty. Then suddenly i thought of the testimony Joanna shared during church service just now.. Wow.. its so amazing to hear the testimony she share about how her father how to know God, wow.. sometimes i wonder when will it be my father's turn.. God.. I'm praying and i am trying.. But i believe God wants me to wait for his timing and i believe so cos i have seen how God bring my mother to know Him in a very unpredictable way.. For my mother its just like Saul becoming Paul.. haha.. really see God's faithfulness in my family..
yeah!! Today is really a wonderful day, spending time with the DIans.. Today we had service in church then after that DI2 went to Starhub to have dinner. soon after that we went to istana park to meet the other Dians, they had fun there then I, meihua, and huixian went to CLM. haha.. so fun and learn alot about God and how to do his work in a better way.. haha..
Felt rather pressure recently, cos have been facing many nagging at home.. firstly i've been home rather late for many days so my mother been wanting me to stay at home and been asking me to find a full time job.. so i promise her to find a full time job by 2005and in a blink its already 2005.. wow.. time really flies.. but i really believe God will put me thru really and seriously i really think so.. so now before i found a full time job, i really need to disciple someone to help me or even break to another CG.. Yeah!! My 2005 resolution.. Yeah!!

Downtown East

wow.. today is a very cold day.. the first thing i feel when i open my eyes are "i am SO cold".. wow really had a wonderful day yesterday at the chalet( downtown east) Cool!! we book three rooms ard blk G we had service before that and had a bus to drive us there, we had our dinner there by catering, the food was great, the fellowship was great!! The Di gals are so clever... haha i am not boosting now its real haha all of us took the food for the whole, each one took different food of large quatity.. then we are like having our own buffet at our table.. haha.. then also thru this time get to know many sis and bro from other campus, after which it started to drizzle but God still bless us wit a good weather.. haha.. we went to the beach and played games," WATERBOMBS" woo.. had been playing this for x'mas and new year.. but i like it!! its fun.. And guess wat?? DI won the battle, we got the least ppl getting wet.. haha.. then after that, the some started heading home as it was quite late..onli meihua, yan jing and me from Di gals overnight.. i was really a pig yesterday.. i reach the room, change into some clean clothes and fall asleep.. till this morning.. can u believe it!!! the rest went to have supper, soccer and so on.. and i was sleeping in the room.. so amazing.. maybe i was too tired.. haha.. jus one word" PIG" haha.. thinking abt this new year, it was rather special cos we countdown thru conference on the phone.. haha.. maybe next year will be on the web cam le.. hee.. let me think who's on line for the countdown.. emm.. Veron, Xuesha, joseph overnight at Meihua's place so of cos they turn to be online, then went i came in Cedric went offline le, there was Zhong huan, then came Donnie, Richard.. haha Donnie so funny went orchard to watch mid-night movie marathon... woo.. Cool!! Wow.. this year Di got a great start and i believe God will continue to bless Di!!! Blessings are coming!!! God promise..